Thursday, 26 April 2007

Living with Diabetes

My partner of 8 years has Diabetes, has done for over 20 years.
It never actually affected me in the first 3 years we were together, although I can now imagine many of you wincing at how I managed to live with him and not let it affect me!
I guess I just let him get on with it and it never really came to mind, well that was until we moved into our new home 5 years ago and I woke one night to him standing behind the living room door in a major hypo state!
Consequently life changed after that due to the fact I started to take a huge interest. Life changed after we had the boys as well as now I had to think of them as well, also ensuring everything was ok if I went out, making sure sufficient carbs had been served at dinner and nagging every now and then about what the blood sugar levels were doing etc.

It doesn't affect my life, but to a significant part it is huge.

When, like happened today, you get a call from Daycare to tell you someone has fallen and smashed their face and it was not one of the boys, then it affects your life.
He had been feeling funny he says as he dropped the boys off, knew he was going low but thought he would be alright and be able to get to work and have some breakfast, but somehow he got out of the car, got the boys inside, followed one of them down the hallway and then tripped and landed on his glasses. One cut face later daycare are calling me to let me know.
He says he doesn't really remember getting out of the car and he can't really tell me why he was going down the hall with our son, but hey that's life.

So life goes on with Diabetes. I don't make an issue of it, because he is really well controlled. We could have it so much worse than it already is, but I have cancelled a conference I sought of wanted to go to in September because I don't feel I can leave him and the boys for 3 nights especially as we don't have any family support in town. A 2 and 4 year old really wouldn't know what to do if he woke in a major hypo.
Please don't get me wrong, they do not happen regularly, although our doctor says one a month is a good thing shows he is in control at a low level, but sometimes when you wake to him going low I thank god that it was one that woke him and he was able to react to it himself, rather than him waking and finding he can't do anything about it because it has happened too quick.

I am not complaining, this is my life and I wouldn't have it any other way. When the boys are older then it will be my time to go away, knowing everyone is safe and well. Till that time I will just be very grateful to him upstairs who blessed me with the family I have and the life we share.

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